wow.. haven't updated for a long time now, im really quite behind. not really sure how im feeling these days. actually i haven't had enough time to evaluate my feelings, seeing as im so busy with choir and redpill. there's a lot of work that needs to be done. actually i have less stuff to do than others; my combination gives me less homework than others, so that is a good thing. the drawback is that i have a whole load of readings to rea, that's im trying to make a dent in. i think the pile doesn't even get a chance to drop!
isn't it amazing how time passes even when you're in a state of limbo? we always say that time passes when you're having fun, but even when you're feeling detached time still passes. there's barely enough time to stop and study our surroundings before we're swept up in the backwash. someone once wrote that life is a game. when i read that, i also thought abt the question that he had asked himself. if life is a game, why aren't we playing it the way it should be played? why do some of us simply give up on this game? is it too challenging, too full of the unknown? sometimes you win, sometimes you lose. the stakes are extremely high in this game, for you fight for your very life.
ok, i've had enough of being philosophical for now. SYF is coming up in a few weeks. sometimes i wonder why i don't react more. i push myself as hard as anybody to achieve that gold up there, within our grasp. everyone is working hard. i don't think im tt tired, so maybe my emotions have temporarily become deadened. i certainly feel that way today; irritable and grouchy for no reason at all, suddenly snapping at people. maybe it was the weather-- horribly muggy weather.
block test results came back ok, i guess.... managed to get yet another 'E' for econs. would prob have gotten a 'D' if it hadn't been for my lousy MCQ. lucky got essay to help pull me up. quite happy with my GP compre paper, managed to get 31.5/50, pulled up by AQ. of all things AQ pull me up; normally it pulls me down. not happy with compo tho; originally got 31, den got marked down to 28 on the assessment that my essay was too clinical!!! arrgh!!! i think the worst shock was lit. never expected to get 24 for prose, was distraught for the rest of the day, but slightly happier with Othello. so i got a 'C' for lit. this does bring back memories of my secondary school days, where i always did well for class assignments but ended up with 'C's for exams. talk about irony! i think the one which caught me most by surprise was my history. never has my southeast asian paper been better than my european one! source based helped me up for SEA; it dragged me down for european. privately i think tt since i did european first and SEA last, maybe i warmed up with european, and so did poorly, but by the time i got to SEA, was fired up and passed pretty well. prob lost the bet with norman already, sigh...
vv long entry! maybe pple who read my blog should get their glasses ready... juz kidding!!!!!!!

simin blogged on 10:07 PM