hey people, im back again... guess i felt like spilling my thoughts and feelings out, because i feel very cramped up with emotions inside. im frustrated that my studying is not really going well, i can't seem to concentrate, or i take a longer time than usual to memorise stuff. memorising is very important in my course, and that has never been a problem for me. so i don't know what is wrong at the moment. i just keep trying, but somehow it doesn't seem to be enough. right now im stuck trying to understand inflation. im reading the words, but they're just not going in, and im so ready to kill the paper(even though its quite dead).
its not just frustration, there's also panic. im like trying to remember what i learnt during lectures throughout the term, and i find that the only subject where i seem to remember a good deal is literature. oh, i just found a great guide to
Persuasion, so now i've got to zap the important stuff. and remember it. im reading the book again, because i realise that while i understand the book, there's pieces and chunks that i vaguely remember, and the story is only somewhat familar. and this scares me. my Coleridge is fine, i suppose i just have to memorise some quotes. and get round reading
Fears in Solitude before Christmas yar? that poem is the only poem that i don't like so far. i also have to read
Othello again, and rememorise my quotes. can't believe i memorised the entire book for block tests, only to have text-based question come out! it just drove me mad...
added to this, is a sense of nostalgia. i was on the choir blog just five minutes ago, and the current song is
Time to Say Goodbye. instantly i was struck hard by a deluge of memories, of all the good and bad times we shared in the choir. sigh...
ok, maybe im tired too... presently running on 5 hrs of sleep, and i still have tuition tomorrow at 8.30am!! that sucks, but i guess its better to study in the morning... at least i get to go out for a movie tomorrow...
thanks for listening to my grumbling people... nite!