ok pple, im gonna say it loud and clear: A LEVELS ARE OVER!!!!!!! they're finally over, and now, i can only look forward to 6 months of freedom from my books. course i have the choral competition to look forward too as well, but at least now i'll be able to concentrate wholly on the songs instead of also worrying over my schoolwork.
its suddenly very scary, because i've just realised that, in the eyes of the law, i've finished my formal education. there's no more sheltering walls of school, just the big wide world waiting for me. that space seriously is frightening. it asks me, what do i want to do with the rest of my life? the doors are all waiting for me to step through; its just a matter of which door i choose. no matter what, i hope with all my heart it is the right one.
my heartfelt gratitude goes to my teachers and classmates. we've gone through crisis after crisis together; we've struggled and battled through econs together; we've cracked our brains over lit together; we've triumphed over history together. i thank the teachers for their patience with us, especially to mr. nathan: im sure we've given him plenty a headache on how to teach us econs. thanks to mr. kellett, mr. tan,mrs. teo, ms. kwok for always believing in us and encouraging us to stretch beyond our limits. to 04A1A, you guys have really been the best! i believe we've come out stronger together as a class. everytime we gather together to pray before an exam, or we gather to plan a birthday surprise for a fellow classmate, the bond between us grows. must keep in touch with each other!
thanks to terry for taking me out to see harry potter today. the movie was good, the food was tasty, the conversation entertaining, the company excellent. i had a really good time today, and we have to make some arrangements to meet up again, i guess.
well... the biggest thanks go out to God, and all those who have prayed for me during this time, especially those at church. thank you God for being with me throughout my papers. whenever i found myself in a difficulty in the paper, i felt Your prescene surrouding me and calming me. i am so grateful that i managed to finish all my papers, even history and econs. thank you those who prayed for me. your prayers were greatly welcome and appreciated, and i could feel their soothing prescene and i was always reminded that someone was praying for me. thank you so much. words cannot express my gratitude.
c'st la vie! when God closes one door he opens another. such is life, and i must embrace this new chapter with open arms. the page is empty, and now it is my hand that crafts this new story. where will it turn? just wait to find out...
Thursday, November 10, 2005
well, here i am, about less than 10 hrs away from my A Levels. its amazing how fast time flies when you don't notice. 2 years have come and are almost gone. in these 2 years, i have travelled through history, literature, and slogged my way through econs. i feel all clogged up with information. well, maybe that's not exactly true, but i like to believe that i've got my facts straight, i hope.
its scary, this feeling, that once i step into that exam hall, and step out again at the end of all my exams, i'll truly be out of school. i would have climbed yet another rung in my pursuit of education, and moved another step closer to adulthood and to my yet unchartered future. i know i certainly didn't feel this way when i did my O levels. back then, all i was concerned about was whether i would get into junior college or not. it would seem that i made it...
so now im sitting here, drinking a truly disgusting concoction that my mum's making me drink. its got bits of flowers in it, so with practically every sip i'm swallowing flower petals. i mean, i get the sentiment, and its probably good for me, but do i have to drink it.... gosh, i guess i have to got to bed early tonight, its gonna be a really long day tomorrow, what with 3 papers. don't get me wrong; im may be nervous, but im not like shaking or something like that (at least not yet anyway...), but the thoughts! and the fear! they hide inside me, and come out as really strange dreams instead.
i hope to have a really good rest tonight. dreamless sleep is preferred, although i wouldn't say no to a parading of my history facts across my brain. i pray to be calm tomorrow. i pray that i remember my facts, and that i answer the questions with what they require from me and if i'm lucky, just that little bit more. i pray that i can concentrate on my work wholly. i pray to practice good time management for the exams, so that i can finish my papers. i pray that my hand doesn't fall off from too much writing ( maybe i should have practiced writing with my left hand as well eh?). lastly, i pray that my friends and classmates do their very best in the exams. to all, good luck!
guess its time for bed now... so i have to finish my concoction- actually some chinese herbal thing- and go to bed. good night all, and may the lord watch over you and guide you. Blessed be.
simin blogged on 11:31 PM
