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Thursday, October 19, 2006

hey guys! after all the excitement of my 19th birthday, i feel that it is time to settle down and be a little introspective of the past year of my life. i've had a wonderful birthday, and people have done for me things that i've never experienced in my life. i only had a birthday party once when i was 11, and i think it was an abject failure. so to have people actually throw me a surprise birthday party was incredibly touching. so thanks to all my friends who actually took the time and effort to plan out a surprise party for me-- even though i probably shocked them by returning early to hostel!
so. today i'm 19 years old. it's strange to be 19, to know that you're just 1 year away from 20, and all the responsibilities that being 20 years old will bring. it is no great shock for me to be 19, because i feel that i've been even older than 19 for a long time. i grew up emotionally faster than most of my peers, because of my difficult social relationships with people my age. my past year has been full of ups and downs. coming to university has forced me to open up and not to hide away in my cave. it is somewhat of a shocking change, and i must admit that it took some adjusting. i've grown so much as a person withing one short year. i worked as a child-care teacher, and i had the chance to relieve my childhood days, while also growing to understand the real world out there. little children looked up to me, and it was awe-inspiring, while also frightening.
i finished my JC education, and entered a new chapter of my life as a university student. i broke up with my first boyfriend, because we were truly better off being friends than anything else. i moved into hostel. i joined a professional outside choir. so many things have happened in my life. i've fought, laughed, cried, struggled, just to get to where i am today, 19 years old. and one more year like that awaits me as i travel towards 20.
i just find it interesting to note that studying literature makes me jaded once again. within a month, my emotions quickly turn cynical once again. but it's the little things like playing with sparklers at midnight, hearing my cousins sing a birthday song to me over the phone, receiving a hand-drawn card--- these are the things that warm my heart, and let my tears start to fall. so on this special day of my life, the day of my birth, i thank God for blessing me with so many wonderful friends, and such a loving family. i think, without them, i probably would have cracked a long time ago. so thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

simin blogged on 1:39 AM

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simin blogged on 1:39 AM

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Thursday, October 05, 2006

hi people! I'm posting again after a rather long hiatus, because i've been busy with projects and essay assignments and such. this really makes me wonder why i chose literature in the first place, because i absolutely don't like writing essays!!!! but curiously enough, i get a great sense of satisfaction when i look at a completed essay. talk about oxymoron!
time really flies when one is in university. in a blink of an eye, my first term is over, i've submitted my first group project and essay assignment, and my first test is coming up soon. which serves to remind me that i'm really behind on my readings again. however, staying in hall has brought its delights. i'm free to do whatever i want, which includes roasting marshmallows in a toaster at midnight, drinking choya and getting slightly drunk. hmm... low alcohol tolerance have i. i can eat chocolate biscuits whenever i want, slack off when i'm supposed to be studying (not a very good habit here!! oops, shouldn't have said that...) and sleep at whatever time i want. this also means a great deal of discipline on my part, and i think i'm doing admirably on that front. i get my assignments done on time, i do my readings whenver i can, and i generally try to enjoy life to the fullest.
i'm also really enjoying choir practice, both in Wild Empire as well as in Hall Acapella. i find that joining Hall Acapella sort of mentally prepares me for WE practice on saturdays. maybe that's why the altos learnt the christmas songs so fast last practice! haha :P i'm going to perform with my hall acapella for mid-autumn festival on 10 Oct. really looking forward to it! i really love performing, and standing on the stage, and hearing the audience go wild, gives me a high like no other.
so where am I? eating white chocolate biscuits before dinner, surfing internet reading fanfiction, doing my readings, typing essays, singing Somewhere over the rainbow outside my room loudly at 10pm, and generally enjoying life. so sue me.

Upside down, bouncing off the ceiling.... boing boing boing boing boing boing .....

simin blogged on 1:14 AM

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