hey guys! after all the excitement of my 19th birthday, i feel that it is time to settle down and be a little introspective of the past year of my life. i've had a wonderful birthday, and people have done for me things that i've never experienced in my life. i only had a birthday party once when i was 11, and i think it was an abject failure. so to have people actually throw me a surprise birthday party was incredibly touching. so thanks to all my friends who actually took the time and effort to plan out a surprise party for me-- even though i probably shocked them by returning early to hostel!
so. today i'm 19 years old. it's strange to be 19, to know that you're just 1 year away from 20, and all the responsibilities that being 20 years old will bring. it is no great shock for me to be 19, because i feel that i've been even older than 19 for a long time. i grew up emotionally faster than most of my peers, because of my difficult social relationships with people my age. my past year has been full of ups and downs. coming to university has forced me to open up and not to hide away in my cave. it is somewhat of a shocking change, and i must admit that it took some adjusting. i've grown so much as a person withing one short year. i worked as a child-care teacher, and i had the chance to relieve my childhood days, while also growing to understand the real world out there. little children looked up to me, and it was awe-inspiring, while also frightening.
i finished my JC education, and entered a new chapter of my life as a university student. i broke up with my first boyfriend, because we were truly better off being friends than anything else. i moved into hostel. i joined a professional outside choir. so many things have happened in my life. i've fought, laughed, cried, struggled, just to get to where i am today, 19 years old. and one more year like that awaits me as i travel towards 20.
i just find it interesting to note that studying literature makes me jaded once again. within a month, my emotions quickly turn cynical once again. but it's the little things like playing with sparklers at midnight, hearing my cousins sing a birthday song to me over the phone, receiving a hand-drawn card--- these are the things that warm my heart, and let my tears start to fall. so on this special day of my life, the day of my birth, i thank God for blessing me with so many wonderful friends, and such a loving family. i think, without them, i probably would have cracked a long time ago. so thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

simin blogged on 1:39 AM